Its my birthday today !!!! Still haven’t figured out how I’m supposed to feel on birthdays.
I used to be really psyched about my birthdays when I was much younger, but lately it just feels like I’m a year closer to leaving earth. I feel way too old and unsure about living and where I’d like to be.
I had a somewhat deep conversation with a friend and I thought to share what I’ve learnt about myself and what I’ll be doing to become a better being.
Maybe you might learn a thing or two;
I will worry about necessary and unnecessary issues. And then I’ll wear a long face like the world is on my shoulders. Worry never helps and it just drains the little bit of happiness I have. I’ve decided to let go of things I cannot influence and do something about things I have control over.
I’m the only one with the power to make myself happy. End of story. But really, I’ve come to discover that my happiness depends on a situation or a person. No one should have that kind of power over me, and I’m taking back my happy. Boy bye ! I will intentionally smile more often and think of happy places. That should work.
This is so deep-rooted, I’m sure ill need extra effort with it. This makes me think of the awful things that an action could cause before the amazing things this same action could cause. I’ll have a ‘what’s the worst thing that could happen’ approach to stuff. Hopefully I’ll be bolder and be willing to take risks.
I usually find myself trying to be another person to feel accepted. This happens unconsciously and then it starts to feel like I’m trying too hard. In the end there’s only one version of me so I might as well try to be a better person.
Life is already hard as it is, and then there’s traffic if you live in Lagos. I will only stay with friends that push me and want to see me progress.
I’ll love myself some more, give myself space to grow and enjoy my journey.
Please leave a comment ! It’ll be awesome to know I’m not alone in this.
Thank you 🙂